learning

assalamualaikum,
i don't know why, i just to write something here.
Faizah, are you free?. i want to learn something from you. can you teach me managerial accounting?"
wow, i don't know on how to react during that time. she said that she can't understand in class. i feel like urm.. i'm not intelligent person like others. but, i try to help her. seriously, if you want to meet me, please make an appointment first. i'm busy during final. fully booked by friends.
i try my best to help her in accounting.
i asked her, why you want to study in malaysia? why you choose uia?
she said " malaysia has good environment in terms of Islam"
in my place the environment is not so good. so, my father send me to uia.
 i'm purely in islam. i'm not convert to islam.
looking into her eyes and i was like " speechless"
Malaysia=islam?
 can't interpret correctly.
in malaysia.?
nowadays:
westernize islamic knowledge
or
islamize western knowledge

did us show good environment to her?

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eagle

hari ni aku dapat berita bahawa ada pipit dah jadi helang.
ohh let's conquer the world.
yeah, aku bangga kerana masih ada orang mencintai ilmu.
moga satu masa nanti aku juga bakal menjadi helang di atas muka bumi Allah.
ahaa cogan kata itu hanya mampu difahami bagi mereka yang pernah rasa indahnya dunia itu .
walau cuma setika , walau cuma 2 tahun.tapi dunia itu penuh dengan semangat untuk berjuang takluk dunia untuk tegakkan apa yang belum tertegak. dan buktikan ummat islam jugak pandai.
kemenjadian.....
ahaa pernah sekali aku tanya pada cikguku,
"cikgu, tak apa ke cikgu selalu dtg sekolah buat kelas, kami risau cikgu tak ada masa dengan family cikgu"
cikgu terdiam, pandang anak mata kami, "kamu, cikgu tak kisah, yang penting kamu belajar sungguh2 naikkan nama islam balik, hadiahkan cikgu A untuk subject ni. itu kepuasan yang cikgu nak".
kalaulah cikgu pun cita-cita dia nak naikkan nama islam. anak murid dia apa tah lagi.
ahhh..
perjuangan untuk jadi helang masih perlu diteruskan.
"dah berjaya, jangan lupa cikgu"...

semoga berjaya helang2 semua.

see, pipit nak sambung baca buku sebab cita-cita nak jadi helang.
wassalam.

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tutup

tutup sana sini.
carilah yang tutup hati bukan tutup muka.
penat wei ko tutup muka andai hati kau tak jaga2.
penat wei ko panas2 pakai tudung cecah lantai
andai hari2 ko stalk dia.fb insta, pee hot.
ehh apa kau fikir post ni untuk perempuan je?
ahh jangan lupa lelaki.
kau pun sama, andai kau selalu stalk perempuan, goda perempuan
maka bakal isteri kau pun selau mengayat lelaki2 diluar sana.
apa tak percaya ?
perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik.
sudah... tak nk percaya .. terpulang laa.

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realize

alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah i still have my time to spend with you.
the best quotes that i got in this week,
"textbook is not your holy book"
 it is make me realize somethings that the theory is not always correct.
the implement of the theory.
i asked you,
who make the theory?
people right?
the book that you read is from western.
so,
people can make mistake.
people is not perfect.
textbook is not your Holy Book .
we can change it.(theory)
sometimes, we can accept the theory. but, reaching some points, you stuck.
hey, it is not the answer.
the theory itself.
haha during that time,
you know that knowledge is from science.
science is from the ideology.
ideology is from thinking
people need to think.
hmm,
but if you notice nowadays people do not want to think.
so,?? how??why?
why we need to follow others even though we can stand by our own legs?
why i need to follow you ? i don't want to become you.
why we need to follow others?
because we afraid about others perception?
think.
it is wrong, why i need to follow the theory.

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i'm sad

masih adakah lagi insan yang menangis

masih adakah lagi insan yang mengingatinya

masih adakah lagi insan yang memikirkannya

duhai sang hati, 

adakah lagi cebisan namaku?

adakah lagi cebisan doa buatku?

adakah lagi cebisan al-fatihah buatku?

duhai Allah,

ampunkanlah dosa ummatku.
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ingin aku tanya sesekali kepada manusia tapi aku tidak tahu namanya,

ingin aku tanya pada mereka 

apa erti malu? 

ingin aku tanya mengertikah kamu malu?

malu itu apa ?

malu pada  dulu bagaimana tafsirannya?

malu pada masa kini?

ahh persetankan saja.

mungkin dulu malunya tafsirannya lain 

malu pada masa kini tafsiran bergini.

dulu

malunya lelaki itu tahu namaku,

malunya aku lupa untuk bangun malam tadi

malunya aku lupa untuk puasa isnin dan khamis

malunya aku tiada buku untuk dibaca.

malunya aku tak tahu baca jawi 

kini

malunya aku tiada kawan lelaki

malunya aku lupa nak sambut birthday kawan aku malam tadi

malunya aku dapat score full marks paper yang lepas

malunya aku tiada handphone,tabs

malunya aku tak tahu english

mana ertinya kamu ummat nabi Muhammad

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mana yang kita aula kan?

mana yangkita fikirkan?

apa sebenarnya yang menghantui kamu duhai manusia.

masih adakah erti malu?

"malu rasanya mengatakan cinta kepada dia kekasih ?

Allah atau hati.(sang ajnabi)

tanyalah dirimu semula. 

semoga anda tahu hari ini hari apa,

jika tidak tahu,

malulah anda sebagai muslim,

tiada baris kata ingin aku tulis,

tiada madah pujangga ingin aku nukilkan

buat sahabatku, teman seperjuanganku di kolej kg, jawa satu ketika dulu.

manisnya persahabatan denganmu,

nukilan ini hanya untukmu sahabat yang selalu menasihatiku 

satu ketika dahulu.

aku tidak sehebat engkau. 

masih aku ingat kata-katamu

andai kawanmu berkawan dengan lelaki, jangan salahkan dia,

salahkan diri kita kerana kita lupa untuk berikannya kasih sayang seorang kawan kepadanya.

sungguh, tarbiah itu seindah awan nan menbiru.

semoga hari-hari mendatang menjadikan kau seorang perempuan sehebat 

khaulah al- azwar.

kerana kau jugak pemimbing generasi akan datang.

selamat membaca tazkirahku buatmu.

salam maulidurrasul dan selamat hari lahir.

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it is me

assalamualaikum.
with the beautiful of sky, blowing of the wind. trying to push me on the bed. sleep is the best treatment. but i don't want to sleep. so, i decide to write something here.
if you want to know someone, try to know 3 things about them. see,hear and read. and lastly, people always said that don't judge a book by it's cover. so, maybe you can use this theory to know about someone. on the surface, judging someone by listening what they are talking about. if you friends love to talk about boys, shopping, cars. it shows the things that the topic is spinning around in her/his minds. -neouratic reader-
i just want to share the knowledge that i know by reading books.(books related with brain only) but, i love calculation than reading.  hmm.. sometimes, people call me crazy. it is because i love to read book talking about brain, thinking. opps, do i care? what do you want from me ? i did not disturb you if you want to read "suamiku encik perfect" or "isteriku tukang cuci lantai". ohh, please don't give me novel during my birthday on this coming january. everybody has there own perception. so,everybody has their right.  i'm not begging you in terms of love. so, just respect others. i just want to say,
-mungkin tahap pemikiran kita tak sama-

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end of 2015

assalamualaikum.

i just want goodbye to 2015. hello 2016. i always ask myself that what i got in this 2015. life stuck in this university. i'm happy i have the opportunity to enter this university. 1 year in degree. hmm. nothing much to say. just enjoy your life even though you do not know what's going on actually. 

2016.

i don't want to expect anything. 

hopeless. helpless.

i'm sorry.

hope is killing me.

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